Recognizing the Patterns In Our Life
Have you ever seen The Matrix series? When the original movie was released in 1999, I was in the midst of my career on the high seas (cruise ships), which meant that I got to experience life when I got home for vacation, about six months behind the rest of the world. At that time, I wasn’t really into sci-fi (I mean you’re reading the words of a woman who has never even seen the original Star Wars movies), nor did Keanu Reeves enthrall me so watching the movie wasn’t high on my “to do” list. Eventually I got talked into it and have come to love the message. Why? Because they go so far beyond sci-fi and are playing with human evolution and our Consciousness. The Warner Brothers synopsis is something like this “Have you ever had a dream that you were so sure was real? What if you couldn't awaken? How would you know the difference between dream and reality?” And so I ask you this, [Where are you in] “the battle to destroy the illusion enslaving humanity?”
I have come to understand that this enslavement of humanity is what holds us hostage. It’s when we have a shift in our perspective that we can finally see our behavioral patterns showing up, popcorning throughout our personal history. Just like watching the weather patterns before you go boating, a check-in before you set sail can be the difference between life and death. It’s simple observation, and it doesn’t take a psych degree to see it for ourselves. How do I know this? Because I have come to see the patterns in my own life. It is my belief that we come into this world with karmic seeds and patterns that we are pre-destined to have potentially play out in our lives until we evolve. Now we can water those karmic seeds and they grow. The “water” represents our likes and dislikes. It’s kind of like a set of twins. One is the good twin and one is the bad twin. Both behave in a manner that supports the one being “good” and the one being “bad”. Eventually each one merges into their specific identity so all of their choices are then based upon what feeds their ego and their belief system about themselves. Sort of like “of course he did that, he’s the bad seed” or “of course he did that, he’s the star of the family”. Whether you choose for, or against your preferences, it’s a stimulation in the various pleasure areas of the brain and it’s what we see in ourselves every time we look in the mirror. We can become addicted to that feeling.
Have you ever had a dream that you were so sure was real? Caused by something that happened to you when you were a kid but now you are 40-something. So here is the deeper question, how do you know that what you are reliving actually happened the way it continues to play out in your mind? How do you know if the choices you’ve made since then haven’t been manipulated by your mind, getting you to believe the details of the original story? You know the one, it’s the version that you keep telling yourself. I’m not saying that what happened to you many years ago didn’t happen, what I’m pointing to is the game your mind has played with you ever since that fateful day … it’s the stories that have continued to build up in your memories that hold you hostage and keep you from The Oracle, The Truth. If you were to choose the blue pill and have the truth revealed to you, you’d then have the ability to see firsthand, the difference between the reality and your perception of reality. If you choose the red pill, you remain captive to a false belief system that keeps you small.
But the good news is we hold the power to make a change in not only how we see ourselves in the spectrum of our lives but the power to dissolve those karmic seeds that have created the weather patterns in the vast sky of our Consciousness. A few years ago, I was sitting on a swing suspended from a huge oak tree in the heart of the Ocala National Forest, having a conversation with another person about an opportunity that he was offering me. Since we were sitting side by side, I wasn't distracted by the person but wholly focused on the words of the offer, feeling the resonance and energetic impact of each word. All of a sudden, this vision showed up in my mind ... a matrix of interconnected stars revealing that although this was a different person, a different location, a different conversation, a different time, in essence it was of the same karmic pattern that had repeated on many occasions in my life. It left me breathless and for a moment, his words faded as my internal world lit up.
It was one of those epiphany "ah-ha" moments where I literally stood outside of myself and watched from afar, respectfully listening and being present, however I was completely in tune with my value, so I was able to recognize the matrix pattern instantly. I could say “yes”, and keep the tribe happy or I could say “no”, and be true to myself. This was my opportunity to make a life choice with the intention of finally dissolving the pattern and I had to be completely ok with the repercussions that would come. Part of us wants to keep the tribe happy and yet it’s at the expense of our dreams. On the other hand, we use it as an excuse to remain small because to live a big life, you are going to bump up against other people’s “stuff” and risk upsetting the proverbial apple cart.
When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.
So the question remains, will this pattern appear again? Most likely, yes. It’s as if our Higher Self sends us opportunities to test our commitment to a conscious evolution, so yes, I believe the patterns remain but here is the kicker. The patterns may continue to appear, however our attachment to the result is where the biggest shift comes in. Why? Because in the evolution of our karmic journey, our choices either strengthen the karmic button or disable it. When it's disabled, the pattern can re-appear and this time, nothing. No reaction, no response, simply a recognition of the journey and a celebration of how far we have come.
And what did I say to the offer? I delivered a heartfelt "no, thank you". I found courage in accepting my value, and was incredibly thankful for the chance to grow beyond my capacity and strengthen my container.